Its funny how a girl your own age in any grade really can make you feel so insignificant. There's this girl, isn't there always? She shares my name. So every time in dance the teacher says, nicole you are doing a fantastic job! i think to myself, i am arnt i? i smile and say thanks, at the same time as the other girl of course. I think my teacher does this just to piss me off because she knows i go by Nikki yet she refuses to call me that. This other girl has been dancing her whole life but ive only been dancing 3 years. She is obviously much better than me. The only problem is she knows it. She ignores me. Its amazing how being ignored is worse than being yelled at. Its almost like reverse psychology. why does this effect me so much? because i am insecure and need to win her approval, duh. Wow being a teenager is messed up.

R.I.P Bella, you were such a sweet little rat :) Ill miss  you forever. 

The worst part of life is finding out life isn't all fluffy and fun like the hundred acre wood. Its full of disorders and sadness. 

This picture reminds me of the dead part inside me.

Did you know, it is possible for your uterus to fall out after you give birth? Yeah...That happens. Not completely out, just slips down. Gross. Can you imagine if that happened all the time. Picture a girl on a job outside and making a weird face..then reaching in her pants and pushing her uterus back into her body. Okay she's good.

Here's to the friends that dress weird and act crazy just because of your presence, because something inside them awakens, Something exciting and childish. Something that not everyone has together. Here's to the friends that found it in themselves and helped them find it in me. To just be yourself and to act however the hell we want to. Here's to the other halves of myself. 

dear world...lets cut out that whole awkward "Teen phase" it sucks and it hurts. There's a reason parents dread for their kids to enter that stage..because then they will have to re-live it. Alright world well ill let you sleep on it. Thanks :)