Today I awoke at 2:00 pm. I have to get my wisdom teeth out tomorrow and i need an IV to be sedated. I am not looking forward to  this at all. Though in august i plan to go to my lake with my dad. My step mom julie will stay to look after the farm with my favorite dog and we will bring price, the yellow lab we inherited when my grandfather died. Prince is great, i just don't have as good of a connection with him then jackson..though any dog is better then no dog. I miss them both soo much :(
Even though i miss the farm, and the animals... I do not miss living there. My dad will never change, it kinda scares me to go with him alone to the lake, I hope he doesn't get high again or if he does he leaves me alone. The drinking i should be used to by now. its just not fair. I am not a selfish girl, I just ask for my father to put me first once in a while. Is it right that he my step mom before me? Wow I need a hug.
Its been hard growing up, maybe a little too fast. I am 17 and I know what I want out of this life and i know how to get it. I learned the hard way that adults do not always know what's best. They are just over grown teenagers not affected by the rules. My mom told me when i was little that i could come to her with anything. So i came to her about sex and she says TOO MUCH INFORMATION! My dad told me he would always be there to protect me. I don't think either parent really registers that kids take that literally.
My dad wasn't there the night my uncle molested me, he was passed out upstairs. I hope i remember this when i have kids.




(this is prince) I swear this dog is half person..just look at him. His personality is humble..i don't get it :)